a song for me

PALS!
oke, akhir-akhir ini aku sangat sangat sensitiv! well, ntahlah.. aku juga benci kalo keadaanku yg begini. berkali-kali mencoba untuk sabar, tapi payah kali ntah laahh! Jadi, kadang bahkan tiap malam, aku slalu ngurung diri di kamar, ngingat apa yg terjadi mulai pagi ini, makina guru, makian ortu karna jarang makan, makian orang lain. :( uu, i cannot stand this! so, aku terus dengerin dan nyanyiin lagu ini tiap kali sedih 

What have I done? I wish I could run
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight
Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send down a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight 

itu, salah satu lagu yg wajib aku dnegerin sebelum tidur, nyentuh banget! kadang aku berdoa supaya hujan turun, supaya ada temanku, supaya orang di rumah gak denger aku nangis. setelah puas, baru aku dengerin lagu ini 

Yeah, you may think that I'm a zero
But, hey, everyone you wanna be
Probably started off like me
You may say that I'm a freakshow (I don't care)
But, hey, give me just a little time
I bet you're gonna change your mind

All of the dirt you've been throwin' my way
It ain't so hard to take, that's right
'Cause I know one day you'll be screamin' my name
And I'll just look away, that's right

(Chorus)
Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the words you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up, I'm tunin' up to fade you out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me

Push me up against the locker
And hey, all I do is shake it off
I'll get you back when I'm your boss
I'm not thinkin' 'bout you haters
'Cause hey, I could be a superstar
I'll see you when you wash my car

All of the dirt you've been throwin' my way
It ain't so hard to take, that's right
'Cause I know one day you'll be screamin' my name
And I'll just look away, that's right

(Chorus)
Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the words you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up, I'm tunin' up to fade you out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me
A loser like me

Hey, you, over there
Keep the L up-up in the air
Hey, you, over there
Keep the L up, 'cause I don't care
You can throw your sticks, and you can throw your stones
Like a rocket, just watch me go
Yeah, l-o-s-e-r
I can only be who I are

(Chorus)
Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the words you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up, I'm tunin' up to fade you out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me

(Chorus)
Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the words you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up, I'm tunin' up to fade you out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me (A loser like me)
A loser like me (A loser like me)
A loser like me 
kalo lagu itu, buat nyemangati aku! supaya aku mengakhiri tangisanku itu! LOL! Musiknya buat hatiku dancing! huaaahhhh, sekarang aku pingin nyari lagu buat penyemangat + musik yg penyemangat! supaya aku gak ritual nangis lagi, supaya aku cepat ngelupain smua beban itu, supaya aku nganggap smua itu hanya yaaa hanya angin....
but ugh,  aku jadi benar-benar payah skarang!!! ooke, mungkin ini gara" aku hanya palak sama si adek! payah kan! skarang yg "KAKAK-AN" itu aku ato dia sih! Duh! pingin aku bacok aja tu mulut ga sopan sama kakak sendiri! tapi, apadaya, aku tak bisa apa-apa. i am fragile...........